I have been in a contemplative state it seems for most of the past few months. I find myself nearly always in deep thought, with the crease in my brow to prove it. It seems like this semester has been so compact with mental and spiritual growth for me. This growth is self-focused. I see myself much more as an individual--independent of others' thoughts or judgments. I find myself analyzing so much, wondering what I believe about certain topics such as politics and certain religious practices. It seems as if I have hit a new phase of my growing process.
I don't know when exactly I began to crossing over from child to adult. Was it my thirteen birthday when I reached adolescence? Or maybe when I moved out of my parents house? Could it have been when I moved to college? Or became an upperclassmen? I'm not really sure if it was one of those particular instances that caused me to "cross over". More likely it was a combination of all of the above and more. I appreciate the fact that I can see my growth. I watch myself maturing everyday--growing into this woman who is greatly desiring to please the Lord with her life.
Not to be prideful, because I don't think that this is being that but I like the woman I am becoming.
